I Feel No Pain by Syed Hamza Haider

Today I feel no pain, I fear no devil and I fear no hell.

I am a person sitting on a wheelchair and 12 years have passed. 12 years which have been a living hell for me. 12 years which have been a result of an accident that happened which made my life worthless. It’s been seven years since 9/11.


Today I sit on my wheel chair; I look outside and I see a park. I see a park which used to be crowded. Where I could see people chatting, children playing and laughing, birds flying and the cool wind blowing. Those were times filled with joy and laughter. Those were the times when my daughters sat and read books, my son played with his friends, my wife looked after the house singing like a bird and I, I was a proud possessor of a happy and healthy family.……and then 9/11 took place. Everything changed. My life is destroyed. They killed my wife. They took away my son to an unknown place, my innocent daughters were raped in front of me and I could not do anything to save my family. My life is lonely and empty.


Yes , this was after 9/11 when the Americans came to our country Afghanistan and destroyed us completely. When I was younger I abhorred violence, I did not want to waste a second of my time in evil and worthless things, but now  everything has changed. I want to die. In every minute I suffer 60 deaths. My desire for death is so great that I do not fear death anymore.


Today I feel no pain because I have no feelings. Today I fear no devil as I have seen the merciless devil in the eyes of the American soldiers while they bombed hundreds of my fellow countrymen to death. And lastly I fear no hell. Could any other hell be worse than this one. I have none to depend upon. No shoulder to cry on.


Yes ,now  I feel no pain, I fear no devil and I fear no hell.


This is the story of every individual in Afghanistan who has been alive since 9/11. America’s atrocious attack on Afghanistan resulted in hundreds of children being orphaned, many women being widowed. And took away the lives of many innocent people. What was this war based upon? An assumption that Osama bin Laden was hidden SOMEWHERE in Afghanistan? And so bombarded the whole country, destroyed millions of people and started a vicious cycle that led to nothing but destruction.


It is so easy to invade a country. Doesn’t that seem the case after viewing the invasion of America. A merciless invasion that left women raped and assaulted on the assumption that Osama bin Laden must be there somewhere, children being killed on the thought that we might find the world biggest terrorist somewhere, that left many men broken or arrested on the false notion of combating Al-Qaeda!!! Absurd!


All this led to chaos. A chaos which would engulf the world in its inevitable destruction. No one to earn, no one to provide food, poverty, starvation and not only were people killed by arms, the enemy called disease and starvation killed those who were left behind to mourn.


So what people suffer who are left behind. What people suffer who have witnessed the death of their loved ones, what does their psychology suffer from, what do their minds, their hearts say. This is what they say ‘ I feel no pain, I fear no devil and I fear no hell. This is what is said when you have lost everything to tyranny and cruelty. This is what that Afghani man introduced in the beginning would say.


Just imagine a man who had worked all his life, hard for his family, to see his children grow up to be prosperous individuals, imagine what would happen when his dreams are shattered and that to because of someone else’s fault. What did that innocent man have to do with the 9/11 attack. How could the whole Afghanistan be involved in this? Why punish millions for the crime of a single person and without evidence or proof of his location. Revenge will brew inside him like a pot of boiling hot water. What else would a person want rather than killing the forces who have killed his loved ones and inflicting pain on those who have done the same to him. We have made these terrorists ourselves. Our foreign policies have given birth to suicide bombers, men ready to blow up themselves are a product of the tyranny manifested by the so called super powers of the world. Do you expect a person to jump for joy when his family is killed? Do you expect a person to remain dumb and deaf and inactive after he sees his house burning down.


Forgiveness is a sweet word but there is a limit to which a human being can bear something. This vicious cycle of terrorism has begun due to a reason and we cannot lay the blame on anyone else. Afghanis held in Guantanamo bay are a picture and a reflection of the force unleashed by the Americans. What would other Afghanis do after witnessing their loved ones being stripped naked, tortured, made fun of, electrocuted, deprived of sleep.


The world is becoming a difficult place to live in. these are chaotic times. In the words of William butler from his poem ‘the second coming’


Turning and turning in the widening gyre

The falcon cannot hear the falconer;

Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold;

Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world,

The blood-dimmed tide is loosed, and everywhere

The ceremony of innocence is drowned;

The best lack all conviction, while the worst

Are full of passionate intensity


It is time to end this cycle of inflicting terror and then being a target of the rage of the person who has been wronged and who has suffered so much that he himself is a power unleashed. It is time to look into places where we have gone wrong  and make things right so that no one comes to a stage when he  has been pained so much that he feels no pain, fears no devil and fears no hell. Let humanity prevail.

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30 thoughts on “I Feel No Pain by Syed Hamza Haider

  1. I feel dejected and ashamed after reading this.. World have seen one side of picture but other side of picture is full of Blood, drones & killing innocent and they don’t know the reason..why they are killed.
    This war has created more enemy than friends and war is not an answer of Peace.
    For Peace you need to have positive dialogue, meaningful developments for people to eradicate terrorism.

    Best effort Hamza , keep the Good Work.

  2. The way the issue have been addressed is commendable. The reader develops a sympathetic feeling. The writer is able to create feelings and emotions for the people. The other side of the story is portrayed which many people aren’t aware of.

  3. A war just to satisfy the avarice of a single nation, this war shed more blood then 9/11 itself, pushed the entire world into the darkness of terrorism.
    Greatly drafted Hamza, you are making great strides.

  4. The world has only hear one side of the story of War on Terror. After reading this, we come to know how cruel the world is, how the media is not fair and how we are always unaware of the actual facts and figures. I feel ashamed after reading this that how we our selves have made the terrorist by starting the never ending. The article surely makes us emotional and makes me feel the wrong doings faced by the people of Afghanistan

  5. this article portrays what Afghanistan have gone through over the years. its is niclely jotted down. it creates a sense of interest through out the article. the true side is this which was pointed by the author. the writing is very good and the poem at the end takes the article to a next level

  6. This Is so true, The impact of war on terror are so disturbing and worse. That kids live in those areas are so mentally disturbed and living in worse condition and needs réhabilitation.

    Best of Luck Hamza

  7. It is an excellent article which sheds light on the darker side of the picture which is ignored by the world. This war has led us to nothing but an unfathomable abyss from where we see the rim of the world with terror. the useless rhetoric for inflicting war upon other nations is proving out to be counter-productive. This article lucidly elaborates that how people have turned passive against all the atrocities being inflicted upon them. This article portrays the fact that humanity is being humiliated in the light of this war on terror and the world intelligentsia must give a serious consideration to the matter. An excellent attempt.

  8. That is what is the demand these days! People need something which strikes them emotionally just to muster up the courage for raising their voices! By this you have infused new spirits into people! Good luck! Amazing job!

  9. By This article portrays what Afghanistan have gone through over the years. its is niclely jotted down. the linkage between writing and the poem at the end takes the article to a next level The way the issue have been addressed is commendable.The other side of the story is portrayed which many people aren’t aware of. Indeed a great attempt hamza !


  10. I am ashamed that our fellow muslims have gone through such excruciating paon and have all this time endeavoured alone to save themselves! To make it worse, all of this has gone unnoticed! Thanks for bringing it into light!

  11. I am embarrassed that our fellow muslims have gone through such excruciating pain and have all this time endeavoured alone to save themselves! To make it worse, all of this has gone unnoticed! Thanks for bringing it into light!

  12. Dark side of war,cruelty ,pain and inhumanity!                                                
    A true story and real picture of innocent people who fell prey of Americans but no one is answerable for this terrorism.This bloodshed and anger will shift generation to generation.
    A good article,well done!

  13. With the unethical media, we are unable to see the other side of the picture. They portray us only one side of a story and have the ability to change and mold our views and thoughts. This article emphasis on this and shows the picture from another prospective. This article makes the reader emotionally attached. The article have achieved its goal to much of an extent

  14. We really need to get behind our afghani brothers. At least on social media, a voice should be raised. This article could be the flag bearer of that movement.

  15. I am really ashamed of myself after reading this article that we, people across the border don’t know what’s going on in our fellow country. Yes it’s true, we are making terrorist. We are not fighting terrorism but yes we are promoting it. The article have highlighted the facts and the real story. I thank the author for this wonderful contribution on war on terror !!

  16. The cruelty is at its peak. Actually, USA is the one promoting terrorism. Being the super power they have failed in the war on terror and they cant overcome this fact, but they need to. War on Terror was a big mistake, not only the terrorist died but many lives of the innocent were lost too. Writer have shown us the true picture and with no doubt USA is the one to be blamed.

  17. Again, very well written. There are millions of people out there who’ve faced such terrible incidents in life and its sad how they’ve become so indifferent towards everything that they don’t fear anything in this world.

  18. The article is the voice of millions. I appreciate the effort of the writer who highlighted this issue and showed us the picture from the other hand. The writing and the poem effect is extraordinary!!

  19. The torture on people of Afghanistan is summed up in this article. it put forwards the voice of the people who want to kill themselves, who have suffered. They would surely become terrorist and we are the ones who are making them. Excellent work by the writer. keep it up 🙂

  20. As the topic says, I feel pain after reading this article. We live in a country where we are unaware of the situation of our neighboring country. We have to stand up for this, we have to fight and stop this anarchy. Its an eye opener. I thank the writer for such a wonderful contribution.

  21. I feel pity for the people of Afghanistan. After reading the article it seems that I have suffered the pain. This is a big achievement and the credit goes to the writer. Amazing work indeed!!

  22. The article is well shaped and no one could have had asked for more. It have all it needs. Its one of the best articles i have read so far. The poem at the end makes you so much emotionally attached that no one can imagine and that’s the victory for the writer !!

  23. I feel immense pain for my neighboring country and feel sorry for them. I’m ashamed that no Muslim state took action against this persecution. We should have had shown solidarity with our Muslim state but its never too late. Unique side of the story could be observed, the writer is able to achieve the goal to make people think about the issue

  24. This article is a big slap on the faces of those who are or were in the favor of war on terror. This article have made clear that how this decision was wrong and why terrorism and war on terror not coming to an end. All questions are answered, writer have made a strong stance and I stand by it!

  25. The point has come, enough is enough. The article is the voice of our Afghan brothers. It creates an urge to stand up for their rights and the unrest. This is an achievement for the author!

  26. Excellent work by the author! Yes we were wrong by not standing against the wrong doings of the USA. they shouldn’t have invaded the country. They should accept the fact that the war on terror have promoted terrorism. I salute the writer for pointing out the real story on this forum

  27. This article is the best i have read ever so far,it creates an emotional appeal. It made my heart cry. Im heart broken that how much Afghans have suffered. Its very difficult for them. I thank the writer to publish this article, its an eye opener indeed!

  28. I strongly agree with the writer, yes we were wrong on our part. Yes i feel pain after reading this and cant even imagine the pain suffered by our fellow country. I feel ashamed that there was no protest on national level!

  29. I had mixed views about the war on terror but this article have changed my perspective of seeing things. I came to know exactly what’s happening in Afghanistan. All my questions to why not war on terror is ending have come to an end. We have promoted terrorism. Actual terrorist are us who created them!

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