Today I feel no pain, I fear no devil and I fear no hell.
I am a person sitting on a wheelchair and 12 years have passed. 12 years which have been a living hell for me. 12 years which have been a result of an accident that happened which made my life worthless. It’s been seven years since 9/11.
Today I sit on my wheel chair; I look outside and I see a park. I see a park which used to be crowded. Where I could see people chatting, children playing and laughing, birds flying and the cool wind blowing. Those were times filled with joy and laughter. Those were the times when my daughters sat and read books, my son played with his friends, my wife looked after the house singing like a bird and I, I was a proud possessor of a happy and healthy family.……and then 9/11 took place. Everything changed. My life is destroyed. They killed my wife. They took away my son to an unknown place, my innocent daughters were raped in front of me and I could not do anything to save my family. My life is lonely and empty.
Yes , this was after 9/11 when the Americans came to our country Afghanistan and destroyed us completely. When I was younger I abhorred violence, I did not want to waste a second of my time in evil and worthless things, but now everything has changed. I want to die. In every minute I suffer 60 deaths. My desire for death is so great that I do not fear death anymore.
Today I feel no pain because I have no feelings. Today I fear no devil as I have seen the merciless devil in the eyes of the American soldiers while they bombed hundreds of my fellow countrymen to death. And lastly I fear no hell. Could any other hell be worse than this one. I have none to depend upon. No shoulder to cry on.
Yes ,now I feel no pain, I fear no devil and I fear no hell.
This is the story of every individual in Afghanistan who has been alive since 9/11. America’s atrocious attack on Afghanistan resulted in hundreds of children being orphaned, many women being widowed. And took away the lives of many innocent people. What was this war based upon? An assumption that Osama bin Laden was hidden SOMEWHERE in Afghanistan? And so bombarded the whole country, destroyed millions of people and started a vicious cycle that led to nothing but destruction.
It is so easy to invade a country. Doesn’t that seem the case after viewing the invasion of America. A merciless invasion that left women raped and assaulted on the assumption that Osama bin Laden must be there somewhere, children being killed on the thought that we might find the world biggest terrorist somewhere, that left many men broken or arrested on the false notion of combating Al-Qaeda!!! Absurd!
All this led to chaos. A chaos which would engulf the world in its inevitable destruction. No one to earn, no one to provide food, poverty, starvation and not only were people killed by arms, the enemy called disease and starvation killed those who were left behind to mourn.
So what people suffer who are left behind. What people suffer who have witnessed the death of their loved ones, what does their psychology suffer from, what do their minds, their hearts say. This is what they say ‘ I feel no pain, I fear no devil and I fear no hell. This is what is said when you have lost everything to tyranny and cruelty. This is what that Afghani man introduced in the beginning would say.
Just imagine a man who had worked all his life, hard for his family, to see his children grow up to be prosperous individuals, imagine what would happen when his dreams are shattered and that to because of someone else’s fault. What did that innocent man have to do with the 9/11 attack. How could the whole Afghanistan be involved in this? Why punish millions for the crime of a single person and without evidence or proof of his location. Revenge will brew inside him like a pot of boiling hot water. What else would a person want rather than killing the forces who have killed his loved ones and inflicting pain on those who have done the same to him. We have made these terrorists ourselves. Our foreign policies have given birth to suicide bombers, men ready to blow up themselves are a product of the tyranny manifested by the so called super powers of the world. Do you expect a person to jump for joy when his family is killed? Do you expect a person to remain dumb and deaf and inactive after he sees his house burning down.
Forgiveness is a sweet word but there is a limit to which a human being can bear something. This vicious cycle of terrorism has begun due to a reason and we cannot lay the blame on anyone else. Afghanis held in Guantanamo bay are a picture and a reflection of the force unleashed by the Americans. What would other Afghanis do after witnessing their loved ones being stripped naked, tortured, made fun of, electrocuted, deprived of sleep.
The world is becoming a difficult place to live in. these are chaotic times. In the words of William butler from his poem ‘the second coming’
Turning and turning in the widening gyre
The falcon cannot hear the falconer;
Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold;
Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world,
The blood-dimmed tide is loosed, and everywhere
The ceremony of innocence is drowned;
The best lack all conviction, while the worst
Are full of passionate intensity
It is time to end this cycle of inflicting terror and then being a target of the rage of the person who has been wronged and who has suffered so much that he himself is a power unleashed. It is time to look into places where we have gone wrong and make things right so that no one comes to a stage when he has been pained so much that he feels no pain, fears no devil and fears no hell. Let humanity prevail.